the reason its so sad is because when its over... we will have to face the reality of the situation again. I'm going to try my hardest to keep this off this forums, but i needed a vent outlet. everyone else i talk to doesn't care or is busy. so. yeah. its just hard. the doctor said he has a 3% chance that the chemotherapy could kick in on "overdrive" and buy him another month. which could cure it.