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The first person to message me was MagicalSquirrelTMT a name that my blissfully ignorant side thought, and hoped, that I'd never have to say again I would talk about my history with him, but if I can take a hint right, I'm pretty sure he doesn't want to be in life anymore at all for the sake of my mental health, I don't think I EVEN CAN talk about him, ever again,

I met a lot of people on here I don't want to talk about ever again, they say the closer you get to someone the more they can hurt you what I feel is important to be said is that MagicalSquirrelTMT is my ex boyfriend,

yes I got over him a long time ago by now, but it'll never stop hurting, even a little, if you've been through it before you'll know that heartbreak is the worst feeling you'll ever have I must have cried every day

for weeks after I heard the news from him, I thought I was done, but here I am crying about it again so much later, I think it's because it's so sad for me to think, it's only about a month from valentines day,

when I was first going to introduce him to my family, it would have been perfect, but unfortunately squirrel was the hardest person in my life to lose, which has been a very hard thing for me to admit to myself,

he's not even dead, I've had my friends die and cried less than this, a funny thing about me is I don't attend funerals

It's hard to see people, finishing the final chapters of their stories, and you're just expected to sit in a room, and be sad with them, who ever actually wants to be sad? But the first time I skipped a funeral I said to myself

"this is an event I can only attend one time if I don't go can I ever forgive myself? Does missing a funeral show disrespect to the person in question? And since I just don't want to be sad, does that mean skipping this event is one of the most selfish things I've ever done? I can't just leave him like that can I?"

I think the answer to that last question is the saddest part, "I'm not leaving, he is"

I have this dream that my friend is having his funeral all like normal, and he just rises and asked one thing, "Where's Aidan?"

Would you look at the time? Almost midnight, if I don't hurry my 1 year Anniversery post will be late
I'll have to start rushing

The next people I met were Esther, Aedan (someone who surprisingly had the same name as me, though spelt different), Elemental, Mage, Willow, Pixel, and many more

I formed an empire, which was a cool little event just culminating in my friend group being called "The United City Empire"

I can't go into much detail about the enemies I've made, I don't want anyone talked about poorly in this post

but eventually I realized I might have to leave Terraria Community Forums because it was causing me clinical addiction,

to quote myself "I went through a social media addiction in the past, it's terrible because nobody takes that particular addiction seriously, but it's just as serious as any other one, I got to a point where if I wasn't on social media I felt a complete nonstop anxiety the whole time,

I couldn't spend my time on anything else, and none of my friends were there for support, I had to give up everything else that was making me happy just to make more time for my addiction and I couldn't do anything else,

I know it was real because I even had a withdrawal, I couldn't stop without an immense nonstop feeling of social anxiety,

a terrible pain in my chest that wouldn't go away sometimes I even had to stay up all night for it, I couldn't get through it alone,

but after I found some real friends they were able to help me and I was able to continue my life"